I sent her an email when I got home, even though I know I shouldn't have. Here's what it said:
"Hi. I was not planning on seeing you today. I saw your mother's car, and was just going over to ask her if I could borrow a book to read, as I was almost done the one I had.
What did your expression mean? You looked so sad. Am I that abhorrent to you, that you shy away as soon as you see me? I wish it was not so.
You never replied to my last email, so I guess I have my answer. I still love you, but it seems I make you happiest by leaving you alone. I will try my best, but I miss you terribly.
I miss telling you what is happening in my life. I miss telling you what Maxim is making Hiroki eat. I miss being able to tell you that Jhonen has his own cartoon show on Nick.
I wish we could be friends. I wish you would talk to me. I wish you well."