March 4th, 2002


I miss spooning.

I read Detective today, by Arthur Hailey. It was a rather predictable tale, but the main character was a detective (shocking!) that used to be a priest until he lost his faith. His reasons were interesting. Here are a few paragraphs from the book.

"Then why did so many people choose to believe, Ainslie often asked himself. One answer: It was mainly their subconscious urge to escape oblivion - the dust-to-dust concept, which, ironically, Ecclesiastes spelled out so well.

That which befalleth the sons of man befalleth beasts... a man hath no preeminence above a beast; for all is vanity. All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again.

Should the practice of religion be discouraged? Absolutely not! Those who found solace in it should be left alone, and, if need be, protected. Malcolm vowed that he would never, of his own accord, disturb the genuine beliefs of others."

Yep. If it helps you to go through life, more power to you.


The World Cafe had a 10 year special on today, with a performance and interview with Tori from 1992. It was quite nice - just her and a piano. She played Leather, and then talked about the separation of love and lust. She spoke about growing up in a Christian home, and the guilt, etc. that were associated with sex. I totally understand. It's amusing that my three siblings and I all grew up in that environment, and yet I am almost totally certain that all of us have had premarital sex. I don't feel guilty about it. I do feel bad about having sex without love, but I think it was better for me in the long term than wallowing in my misery regarding Lela.

She sang Crucify next, and talked about the hostility she encountered when performing. Her honesty and openness were threats to her audience, and they reacted accordingly.

And she finished off with Silent All These Years. Wonderful lyrics. It makes me want to listen to her again, even though I know the songs by heart.

"years go by, will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand?"