September 29th, 2001


back from the rehearsal and dinner

Well, I had a lot of fun, but it was depressing to go home alone. Everyone there seemed to have someone. I wish you were here with me, Sarah.

I wore a suit for the occasion, when my preferred attire is a t-shirt and some shorts. The ceremony is going to be outdoors, and I noticed a yellowjacket nest about six feet from where the groomsmen will be standing. Hopefully something will be done about that before the wedding. The rehearsal went fine. Julia's biological father picked a really odd reading from the Prophet (?). It was a poem about how a couple should be together, but not one. I disliked it. Sharing bread, but not the same loaf. Like two columns supporting together, but not touching. Bleh. I disagree. Love should not be myopic, but it should be a blending together, more than just sharing.

The dinner went very smoothly. There was an open food bar, as well as filet mignon or salmon. I ate a LOT. It was amusing to watch the bridesmaids and the bride try to set up a timetable for tomorrow.

After dinner, we went back to the hotel and hung out in the bar. Andrew bought myself and my Dad a shot of Oban (?), a 14 year old single malt. It was strong, especially since I usually don't drink. I chatted with various people until about 12:30 and then went home.

Oh! I almost forgot. Sean and Julia handed out inscripted letter openers to the wedding party. Mine is left handed! It even has a magnifying glass in the handle. Pretty nifty.

Tomorrow should be interesting.

back from the wedding

It was an eventful day. The wedding went off without a hitch. No yellowjacket casualties, thankfully. The photographer was efficient, and that was over quickly also.

The reception was fun for about an hour. My brother Kyle was the best man, and his speech was very amusing. He was listing qualities that Sean has that will work well in the marriage. The last one was love, and he broke into "You've lost that loving feeling" with some words changed. "Sean's found that loving feeling..." Last night at the bar, a musak version of that was playing, and I mentioned the Top Gun scene to some people then. Well, the groomsmen had to sing backup to Kyle and Scott just like in the movie, so I did my best.

Well, after a while, my spirits fell. Being alone at a wedding is very depressing, especially if you don't drink. I joined a conversation inside between some of Sean's friends and their wives. After a bit, they started a long conversation about the floors in their houses. I said to them, "Do you realize you just talked for over ten minutes about floors? I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I think it's a good thing." They laughed, and then got up to dance. So I sat by myself. Soon after that, someone came over, and we had a long talk. I talked about my ex and Sarah, and she talked about her unhappy marriage. It was strange to be so frank with each other, but I appreciated it a lot. I don't know her well at all, but I really hope she understands how much that talk meant to me. I hope she can revitalize her marriage, and talk to her husband like she did with me.

It's strange how many people talk to me about their relationships. Is it because I try to be impartial, and see both sides of what is going on? Is it because I am logical, and yet a cynical romantic? I don't know.

On the plus side, the two older women that I have crushes on were both there. And, I even got a kiss from each of them as they were leaving, one on each cheek. That made the unhappy wife laugh, since I had told her about my crushes before that. Thanks, Frannie! Thanks, Caroline! *grin*

I signed the guestbook, and put my little Polaroid picture in. My words to Sean and Julia were, "Make each other your first priority." I hope they will hold true to that.

Now I am home, hoping that Sarah will come online before I go to bed. I don't like being lonely. I don't like sleeping alone every night.