August 11th, 2001

happy!!

things are getting better

I think I am over the hump now. My ex was in and out of the book store today, without ever acknowledging me. It still hurts, but the recovery time is less and less. But that is not the exciting news.

I was attracted to a customer! A woman came in to buy a personal pan pizza, and I was infatuated! This has not happened for a long time. For months now, I have found women to be attractive, but I have not been attracted. Oh, frabjous day!

Now I know I can love again. I hope she comes back. I was a bit numb from seeing my ex so many times today, so I didn't try to talk to this woman. She was beautiful, and it seemed like she had a secret; like she knew me, but I didn't know her. Perhaps I am reading too much into all of this, but who cares. I am in a good mood!