April 21st, 2001

happy!!

"sending out an SOS..."

Well, I gave up fighting the urge, and sent an email to my ex, even though I know I shouldn't.

"I have been debating whether to write you or not since I got your email. I honestly have no idea how to respond to you. It hurts me to see that you doubt whether we know each other. Are you trying to upset me? Does using the past tense mean you are done with me? I admire your pragmatism in cutting me out of your life while you are at college, but is there no hope for the future? I miss you. When things happen in my life, you are still the one I want to tell them to. I think about you every day, and I wonder how you are doing. I keep hoping you will come to my door and hug me so hard I can't breathe."