April 14th, 2001

happy!!

"for how much longer can I howl into this wind..."

I REALLY want to talk to my ex. I first thought of replying to her email, but I don't think there is anything I can say that will ease her stress or my pain. Then I thought of calling her, just to hear her voice. But that would be selfish of me, and for now logic is holding sway over me.

Love is wonderful, and I didn't know what I was missing before her. Now I do know what/who I am without, and it hurts...